let's do this

june 11

right, so, we’ll see. 

sandwich: 300

1/2 c raspberries: 30

two eggs: 140

soda: 200

pasta: 400

chips: 400?

candy: 450

(1920)

the day took a nosedive when he proposed a visit and then decided to do the right thing and stay away. i was left on the couch, wishing I hadn’t been so mature. So I carb-loaded like a motherfucker. and then i ate some candy. jesus. i have faith that life is improving, but i think it’s just never going to be easy with him. and carbs just really do not fill the void he left. 

april 9

egg sandwich:  400

quiznos: 750

latte 180

1330

april 8

mcdonalds (shut up): 750

pizza: 840

egg roll: 160

candy: 190

1940

…this week, oh my god. 

cheese and bread: 230

cottage cheese: 110

sandwich: 300

iced nf latte: 90

trail mix: 130

wheat thins and hummus: 200?

failed tuna salad, half eaten: 190

beer: 100

(1350)

april 6

what a day. i’m so ready for this week to end. all i did was snack today, and frankly, i feel fucking horrible right now. it’s ridiculous. 

mozz: 180

booty: 200

egg roll: 80

candy: 190

coffee, cream 25

noodles: 500

salad, bread: 625

cheezits: 210

1910

april 5

wasa and cheese: 210

croissant: 310

nf one pump latte: 120

chickfila nuggets and fries: 530

crackers, cheese, a cookie, chex mix (grad meeting):500?

late night bad decision chai creme frapp 180

1840

april 4

apple juice, wheat thins: 200

turkey sandwich 500?

ice cream: 280

chili mac: 410

combos: 240

latte 120

1750

april 3

egg biscuit, hashbrowns: 460

half and half tea:100?

half a sandwich, before I started gagging: 150

coffee, cream: 25

the shame: mcdonalds: 730

wheat thins: 160

1620

april 2

arthur’s chili burger, fries (bun: 250, coleslaw: 50, patty: 250, 2 tbsp chili: 60?)  : god knows.  800

latte 120

chili: 350

1270

I was full about halfway through that burger, but I ate it all. I did leave about half the fries on the plate. I just got it into my head today that I was going to treat myself, and I overdid it. I need to start ordering sandwiches without sides. I guess the only upside is that I am so full I feel like dying, so I’m not tempted to snack at all. I haven’t gained any weight, but I’m hanging out at 180 now and have been for about a week. Need to work out again. After April 8th, man, it’s gonna be so much better.

april 1

strawberry granola yogurt: 260

sandwich: 170

tortilla chips: 200

coffee, cream: 25

chili and rice: 350

(1005?)

I’m not sure that this is right, because I’m not hungry and I should be. The tortilla chips might have been more, and the chili is just a guess, but whatever. I’ll add 200 just in case:

1205